Results Day

Finally. Finally the day has arrived. Though I have been distracted in the meantime by my job, unlike previous vacations. Finally the day has come to prove my peasant status (as Andrew would have put it). I have just been proven, in the final examinations in NUS for that matter, that I'm neither the top, nor the bottom. I feel like the guy in Eye for a Guy 2 who suddenly blurts about how average he is.

But I have calmed down, though still feeling a little sore. I had basically scored an all-B sem. Not even half an A. Fortunately no C. As a result I dragged my overall CAP down, even further from the initial goal of Second Upper. I'm basically a completely hopeless case. Logically it all adds up. I had lost most of that fire I entered university with by the last semester, and what's worse, there was nothing really that fitted in with my interests or capabilities. Hence I slackened for 2 of the 4 modules, paying my attention to the other 2 more interesting ones. I only discovered how intensely interesting and inspiring Prof Gordon's module was after the semester started. But the room was filled with "powerhouses". I didn't stand a chance. Similar for the essential module. To me the entire sem was all a chore, do be done with. Hence I completely deserved my results. Still, it appears a hard pill to swallow when presented on my notebook screen.

It will take me some days to emerge from its shadow. Probably by tomorrow morning I'll be fine. Usually. Thanks to Ermita for all your encouragements. I just need to throw myself into my job. It's a great job I have. I have absolutely no complaints on that quarter.

That's it for now. Hope I can bring better tidings next time I call. If I do call. Adios.